B&A: When you are writing....do you allow your soul to breathe? +BQ's:)?

I try to. When I write I want everything to be perfect especially the one I'm working on right now. I want every meaning to serve it's justice and how can I do that if i'm not passionate enough to put my soul on every page. BQ1: I have to throw out alot of my work and now that I look back at it i don't know what I was thinking. I have alot of trouble telling the difference between right and wrong and that's why when I write for too long my brain melts and whatever I wrote sounds like crap. BQ2: so far I've confuzzled my readers because all ive done is the first chapter which began in the middle of the story. BQ3: I will be writing today I really need to get up and do something hope my brain doesn't melt and the stuff I write doesn't sound like crap.